16. khudka kuaN, khudki khai!

 no its absolutely true, I am weaving the trap that will  cost me my life at this pace. 

what do i need to stop doing? Umm, sabotaging myself. not taking my future, my present seriously at all. idgaf attitude is important, but not if it reaches this level of self-harm. 

to do pooora karne se ziyada energy toh hum din kaatne mein laga de rahe, which is again the stupidest thing that i have seen myself do since 106. god why cant i stop. 

LOL I just quora-ed and found this: "“You have to be burning with an idea, or a problem, or a wrong that you want to right. If you’re not passionate enough from the start, you’ll never stick it out.” -Steve Jobs" 

i dont think my fire is hot enough to cause iron catastrophe,,,,,,, there is no planetary differentiation happening here. sad reax onli. 


challenges - 

1. i feel lonely.  - no one to talk to , no one to share.

2. i feel lost - no one guiding me, telling me if i am on the right path or not 

3. god damn bloody youtube is toh zahar only 

4. lez not forget the grasss and the buds - god what a time kill 


khaali peeli serotonin boost bas - dopamine chasing bitch... not really doing anything substantive frrrr!!! 


get your act together woman pls! 

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