15. taste of first 'not exactly failure but not a breakthrough either'

 long before I appeared for the exam, I knew what the result is going to be, and I already made peace with it. that made the D day least stressful, I showed up and sat through the 4 hours and that was commendable for me at least. 


but of course, I dont want it to go in vain. Hence, here I am, laying down on my back, ensuring that I am well rested, sick leave,  taking it all in. SO that once I am up, I am up for the journey ahead as well.  

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