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 its only human to have expectations. That makes life "life"- the sense of fulfillment that follows when things happen as you expect or the sense of despair that fills your stomach as you witness none of your expectations being ever met. That is the high and the lows, giving meaning to each other, giving them their due importance.  The consequences of our choices always catch up. And most of all, the expectations we have of others, they arent obligated by them. Its not their burden to carry.  you made the choice to be not financially independent. you dont get to whine about it now. and relax. you will do everything for you, you arent just ready yet. be kind to yourself and towards others. they dont owe you anything, nor you owe them. 

Ok what an empathetic title....  Let's begin by recalling the only cardinal principle I will ever abide by- "Men may come  and men may go but I go on forever"  Amen!  Hola mi amor! Esta es muy difícil. Yo tengo muchas preguntas. Estoy muy confundido.  Lol kidding. No questions, no confusions. It's all about breathing and taking one moment at a time.  Have done it so many times and yet everytime it feels like it's the first time I am trying to get over someone. That's so lame but so real. Perks and con of Short term memory loss, eh!?  I know I will be fine, it's only human to feel sad and honestly I am glad ki I am actually feeling sad and disappointed, had been an year. Was almost questioning my current mindset? Have I turned into a sociopath? Psychopath? Polymath? Or just plain simple loco? 🤨 Now chalo I am relieved ki dukhi hone ka capacity to hai. Similarly dubara rebuild karne ka bhi hai. Accha isi ko resilience kahte Hain. Ye nahi hua to kuch aur...